Random Thoughts
Lately I have been having this feeling that there is so much more to my life as a follower of Christ. For so long my main goal in life was follow God, obey and then all my problems will be fixed but I have got it wrong. They wont be fixed probably they will get worse. It will get harder and harder because the path is narrow and few will find it. For a long time in my life I had it all. I had money, a nice house, fancy car, awesome job then we lost it all in one minute. I still had my job but Aaron didn’t and we had to move back to my home town, Conway, and rent a trailer from my parents. I was so depressed for so long we went from having everything to nothing so it seemed. It was all part of a plan that was to big for me to understand. I am just now starting to see it unfold and it’s been 4 years. I know it has taken this long because of my own selfishness. I spent so long praying that God would get us out of here and in a better house, any house was better than this trailer I thought! My prayers were self seeking and shallow. How could I have been so blind? I thought I lost all the important things but it isn’t so. In 3 years we will have our trailer completely paid off. We have no car payments only some small bills we are trying to get paid off. God was setting it up so when the time comes we will have the freedom to do his will. It only took so long because we were to focused on ourselves to see what was going on. I think that we are not the only ones who have been blinded by this. The church today is preaching the American dream. We are molding Jesus to fit our life style instead of see what His life was really like.
How do we fix this and where do I go from here?
